April 8, 2011

I know I haven't been blogging a lot lately and I am sorry for that. Life just gets in the way sometimes.

Since the last time I blogged I have gone under 200lbs and am now 8lbs until goal. My goal is 180.

I used to be a 6x and am now a size 12. The first time I tried on the 12's and they fit I almost cried. I don't remember the last time wore a size 12. Maybe elementary school.

I have always been the fat one in the family and am trying to wrap my mind around the fact that isn't me anymore. I look at old pictures of myself and wonder why did I let myself get that bad? Why didn't someone step in earlier? Then I think, people did try I was just the rebellious teen that was too pigheaded to listen. I have no one to blame but myself. No one forced that twinkie down my throat or said you must eat this Whopper or something bad is going to happen. I did it willingly. I am coming to grips with my food addiction but am taking baby steps.